letting go of all our hope.

I havnt used this livejournal in a while, and I dont plan on using it ever again either. If you dont have me on your myspace, just add me on there, other than that Ill see you suckers around.

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How much time can u serve for cutting out somenes tounge? I dont like when people talk shit.

I went out tonite after work with some people. I went to a friends cousins birthday party, and everyone was going crazy, and dancing and having fun. People were drunk, some were sober... but everyone was happy. Someone brought up a serious conversation, which quited the entire house. This person, made everyone shut up, for a moment of silence, ... and what they said was "I believe, that it is people like Joey, that can change this world" .... and this person said it sincere and honest, with tears in his eyes,.... I almost cried. Think what you will, but even though I may not think his assumption towards me is correct, It gave me a feeling of hope for this fucked up world. I suggest you all take a deep breath and think about your lives, because some of you are destined to do so, others have potential, and some are a lost cause, .... but making a difference in peoples lives are unforgettable. Ive done it for a family, and what I got in return was a greater gift than I could have ever asked for, but I will tell you right now,... I have nothing to show for it... but I wish I could give it to everyone. You dont even understand....

I have been out of work lately and start working again on Tuesday. Only this time, I am working for my dads company. My other boss went broke on me. On my time off I have taken the opportunity to get some shit done that Ive been procrastinating on. The office is underway, and tomorrow I have to go out to the Hadden Township area to visit a client who owns a daycare. She has a lot of work for us to do. Web/Graphics/Advertisements/etc. Last night I went out with a friend and shot over to Hectors to check out the party they were throwing for Spence. My friend didnt feel like staying, so we left and got some beers and chilled out for a bit - ended up at the fuckin diner. ... Today, I fucked around on my computer getting some shit ready for tomorrow, and then I went out with this guy I used to work with from my last job, over to one of his boys houses and I got some Ink done. Yet another piece to my never ending body collage. My back hurts, I just popped some Motrin and I am going to lay down, watch some tv, not worry about anyone else except myself (dont take that the wrong way, but everyone needs to do that some times. Otherwords you will end up killing yourself), and go to sleep. Tomorrow is a new day, new adventure.

Had surgery yesterday, went alright. I was fine, until I couldnt get any sleep last night. I think I finally got my eyes to shut around 7:30am, and I woke up around 11. I talked to Linny yesterday on the phone, (I havnt spoken to her in months) ... said she would hang out with me today. Its 4:35pm, no one called. I am just going to go to work over at the office. I need to wire the electricity over there, and put up the drywall still... Tonite I am probably going to just go to bed early. Jim said he wanted to do something after 7pm, .... maybe I will go out.

will someone come over and watch a movie with me? ill make popcorn...


1st of 2 surgerys begins wed.

many of you have the wrong idea when it comes to her. you may know enough to judge her, but I think I see her a little bit differently than you do. Yes, she has made mistakes in the past that have hurt me? But that kinda shit happens, I dont want to be with anyone who is perfect. One thing I did notice, is that when she has made those mistakes, she usually showed that she felt bad. Many of you didnt notice this part. To me, I see her as the type of person who acts now, and regrets later, and I tried to change a lot of that, and in some areas, I think I helped make her a better person. I know that this girl has a heart because Ive seen it. Maybe none of you have, but there are many times, where I noticed the real her. I just wish I could have seen it more often. If she didnt care, she didnt have to do a lot of the things she has done for me. And there are plenty of times when words were all that needed to be said for enough proof,... ive had my proof. I just dont like how her regrets usually became my own. ...

It has been way too fucking cold outside. Got home from work early today, I couldnt wiggle my toes they were so frozen. I wish the NHL was still in Fucking Action. I miss hockey...

I dont really hang out with any of the same friends any more. I would swear id be friends with some of these people forever, but I always seem to stray away and find new ones. Its nothing bad, its just wierd how shit works out. No one seems to mind either, because I moment I dont call them, they dont call me either. Im moving soon into my apartment. Its in burlington city. I am probably only going to be there for a year at the most until I find a better place and make more money to move further away. The good part is the place is huge, and my room mates throw keggers every week.

Life has been going pretty well lately. I went out with some girls from college on new years and we party hopped around Philadelphia -- had a blast. I got most of my headaches out of the way. Ive payed off a lot of my bills, and am no longer far behind. Below are some job opportunities for everyone. If you think you want the job, and u think you have enough experience to do the job, dont hesitate to call.

ATTENTION FOR THE UNEMPLOYED or if you are SEEKING A BETTER JOB? Multimedia/Web - Networking - Programming
I got an office in Burlington City, right next to the Burlington Bristol Bridge on Broad St. Im finally setting up my own official multimedia company. I pulled in a buddy of mine, who has a double associates degree in Graphics Design, to work with me as a team. I already started to line clients up, and I have 90 Percent of the shit I need to get started. I am looking for someone else who knows or is trained in the following: Multimedia/Web Design, Networking, Programming. If you have a degree or some college experience, you will make a lot more than if you are self taught, but either way, the pay is going to be pretty good. I promise a decent amount of work to start, you will get your own office keys, and desk area. You must be able to supply your own computer, we can work something out with the rest. I already have printers, scanners, fax machines, and a copier. I use a Macintosh g5 with a 20" flat LCD screen. I have a draft table, desks, chairs, Rotary Paper Trimmer, and all the shit you need for Graphics work.

Call my cellphone if you are interested in a job.

Joe Landis
Cell:
(609) 923-4050
Office Address:
340 W. Broad St.
Burlington, NJ 08016

ATTENTION FOR THE UNEMPLOYED or if you are SEEKING A BETTER JOB? Video Production - Audio Recording/Edditing
Im currently looking for people who might be interested in shooting some commercials for a local restaurant. The commercial will be airing 30 seconds spots on channels such as Spike, Comedy Central, TBS, TNN and more. Pay can be negotiated. The money I can throw out depends on how much you can do. I am looking for people with a good skill level with experience using the camera and video edditing software. You must have your own equiptment (camera, lenses, lights, cords, mics). Comcast will be in charge of broadcasting the commercials over the air. If you are dependable and work out well, you are promissed more work in the future, and will be added to a list for other companies to recieve. When those companies need commercial work done, you have a chance to work threw comcast and get subbed out some work. Looks VERY NICE for PORTFOLIO work if you are interested.

Call my cellphone if you are interested in a job.

Joe Landis
Cell:
(609) 923-4050
Office Address:
340 W. Broad St.
Burlington, NJ 08016

I just got my computer back today. So I finally have had a chance to get on. I dont think I feel like updating much after this, so this is my farewell for now.

For the past four days I have been feeling pretty shitty. I thought I might just be getting a cold or something, and it will be over with in a couple days. So I went to work everyday, and just tried to deal with it. Today, I woke up and could barely get out of bed. I called out of work, and schedualed an appointment at the doctors. It turns out I have strep throat, (something I havnt had since I was like 8), and a sinus infection. I dont really look that sick, but I feel misserable-- but HUrrAy for Medicine! The doctor gave me 3 different perscriptions to feel *better? Antibiotics, and my personal favorite, from request ... Imitrex, for these damn migrains.

Things are starting to get better. Things always seem to work out...
Hopefully things are going to stay good for a little while...
I really am not in the mood for any more unwanted stress or drama...

Hurray for being over her, and -
Hurray for meeting new people!

Is it me? or are the days getting brighter?
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If anyone knows of any good jobs opportunities, please let me know. I am looking for a new one, because I cant stand my current boss. I have experience as a Sales Representative, Bike Technician, HVAC&R, Construction Laborer - General Contractor, Interior Painting, majority of all Restaurant Positions, Delivery, Graphics Design*, Multimedia Design*, Video Production*.

*(can offer portfolio, digital or standard)

only friends of mine can comment.

too many no namers, such as my family, like to come on here and talk shit and lies then hide their name because they are afraid of what I might say back. Sorry it had to come down to this, but if you feel the need to comment, and you dont have an account, then tell me in person.

ok, not to sound like the religious type or anything, because I am far from it...

Today, I was going through this OLD bible... its like, 115 years old. Its full of illustrations and shit, and I decided to browse through it. The whole thing is unmarked, except one part, where some previous owner of it underlined the following:

"Ye have heard that it hath been said, 'An eye for an eye and a tooth for a tooth'.
But I say unto you, *That ye resist evil: but whosoever shall smite thee on thy right cheek, turn to him the other also. And if any man will sue thee at the law, and take away thy coat, let him have thy cloak also. Give to him that asketh thee, and from him that would borrow of thee, turn not thou away. But I say unto you, Love your enemies, bless them that curse you, do good to them that hate you, and pray for them which dispitefully use you, and persecute you"

I dunno... makes sence to me in my current life situation. I wonder if it works.

I had the balls to step up to my dad today. I confronted him about all the years of child abuse, and how currupt his family has always been. I confronted him about everything. I asked him if he remembered a time, when I was about 7, when he beat me to the floor so bad I couldnt get up, and he had the balls to say, if your a man, get back up and fight me, ... so i had the balls to tell him now, if your a man, why would you fight a defensless kid? Why dont you fight me now?
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Ive been working every day at my new job. Ive been working my damn ass off. The people I work with are awesome. I went and got some new ink done today after work... finally started my sleeve. I am going saturday to get more work done. My parents came home from Florda tonite... and already started more drama with me. I guess I kinda deserved it this time, but they didnt even give me a chance to explain myself. I didnt want to fight, so I didnt say anything and called Stevens to get me. Crashing at his house tonight. I need to just get an apartment already. Once I get enough money, which should only be a week or two from now, I am going to start looking around. I may have said some things in the past that I shouldnt have about certain topics, and I just wanted to say that, yes, I do have a handful of really great friends. As much as I complain about this or that, those friends have always been there when it counted. Thats a true friend...

your a slut?

I have nothing in life to live for.
I can not name a single thing.
The only thing in life I have right now is hope.
I hope ...



hope only goes so far.

finally started working. 10 dollars hr General Contractor's apprentice. Piece of cake. Today, I knocked out a deck, spent about 3 hrs working on it, made a good 40 bucks. Not bad at all. Atleast I have some income now. Tomorrow should end up being a long day. I hope it turns into a really long ass day, and I get to work like 15 hours, and make a shit load of money. Once I make enough money, im out people! lol I have decided which state to move to yet. I am thinking about Florida actually, but id much rather go to California. I give myself a month, then Im dissapearing to somewhere. I need to get away. I need to get away...

I dont understand why I recieved the voicemail I did last night at 1 in the morning. In a way I am kind of happy I did, because it made me realize there was still a chance that Ive been dying for. But, I dont understand why this reaction from you? I was finally about ready to accept everything that happened... now my world is all stirred back up. Now you are back in the picture. Now I dont know what to do.